Well after another sleepless, for the most part, night I find myself sitting here bags under my eyes and almost falling asleep studying my bible. I saw my doctor yesterday and have a new medication that should help with the nerve pain shooting down my leg to my ankle until the healing of God is complete. I know my suffering is not in vane as I think that he is using it to help me grow my faith:) I am immersed in a study of spiritual discernment and on the 2nd coming Rapture. I am studying all I can right now. I have a deep passion fire ignited for this for some reason so I am following it. I had a good conversation about faith with my mother yesterday and understand a bit better some of her reactions to my faith lately. Its not that she doesnt believe she is struggling with other issues herself right now and I need to be stronger in my own struggle and attempt to offer her support instead of always needing her to be my rock for support time to give some back.
On the moving subject, the U-haul comes monday for us to load and go. However the tenents for this house backed out so we will be continuing to try and sell it after we move. Bummer on that part but I have faith that this is not in vain we will be shown the way. Well I am off to make some coffee and take a shower. Oh a cool thing is I found some like new skirts at goodwill! I have enough to almost make a whole week or 2 now without jeans! I still wear them when I need to or am out of clean coordinating outfits but I am accumulating more slowly. I love having a swishy skirt around my legs. Plus I found in the 100 degree weather the other day I was cooler. I like feeling pretty and it gives me more energy yesterday I hung out in housepant/pjs as I struggled with severe pain yesterday and I had no energy when I have on my dresses I feel like getting up and getting going! Anyway off I go have a great day, God Bless each of you!
Friday, August 15, 2008
So yesterday and today we looked at houses and I think we found one that will work quite nicely. It is a huge home almost 3000 square feet but it only has 2 bedrooms. However the master bedroom is huge so I plan to actually get an office room divider for cubicles and seperating the room for the kids to have some privacy and then hubby and I will take the other bedroom. It is on 40 acres and I can have my horse. It will only be temporary but we will stay in the same area we are moving to and when we can buy a house again. So anyway the next few weeks will consist of packing and unpacking and getting schooling going in the new house. It will be fun even though tiring. I will try to post pics of the new house soon and I plan to have some really nice meals coming out of the most beautiful it is way cool. Anyway take care everyone I will post more soon.
Sunday, August 3, 2008
So yesterday we got all ready for someone to come look at our house then an hour before they were supposed to come they called and cancelled. I was so bummed my horse trailer sale and my house rented out both fell through this week. I thought everything was falling in to place but that really took the wind out of my sails. So today I am off to Church to pray for guidance and grace to stay calm. My anxiety attacks are threatening to come in but I am asking God's help to keep them away. I know when I feel that coming that I need to step up my faith. This is a learning process and I just keep saying small prayers Like "show me how Lord" "Teach me to walk in your way" or just saying "Jesus I need you" I usually calm down within minutes when doing this and can refocus on gaining perspective. I know he has a plan but in the midst of so much uncertainty I find myself struggling. Till later God Bless you all.
Friday, August 1, 2008
Today is painting day so no schedule. Yesterday I accomplished much of my to do list. I was pleased enough to stop and sit down when my back started complaining at me:) Wonderful hubby cleaned the kitchen completely and today I am starting my second brew of Kombucha. I am excited that this is going well so far:) I have already cleaned the horse stall today and now its snack time then painting time. I will check back later today and show photos of the living room. Till then...